My dear friend Cheryl gave me this sweet gift:
It's one month of daily inspirations that position you to "expect a miracle".
I am in desperate need to expand the view of my world.
I am not in a place of expectation.
I am in a place of
doubt
uncertainly
cynicism
and fear.
I am feeling overwhelmed with national and world events that have
brought tragedy to so many.
I am feeling overwhelmed in a thankless job.
I am feeling overwhelmed by questions of Faith.
I am feeling overwhelmed with a general feeling of being "stuck".
It feels hopeless.
I know that I shouldn't get bogged down by everything...
and I know this sounds like I am in a really awful place but I write about it because I also know that this is part of my process right now.
This is part of my journey.
And it's okay to be in this place for a little bit.
But.
I must also remember that I need to utilize resources around me that will help me move on from this space and help me recognize reasons or patterns that bring me to these places.
I know that I have an amazing husband that is my everything.
He is life-giving to me and I am clinging to this.
I know that I have a family that supports me--every aspect of me.
I know that I have amazing friends who call me because they are thinking about me.
I have friends who let me cry.
A lot.
I have friends who write blogs like this or this to remind me that I am not alone and that
I need to keep believing.
I know that I need to position myself to a place of "expectation" and not write off goodness and kindness that comes my way.
I need to anticipate miracles in the mundane because that's all I can really count on.
And, they are there.
They are.
I just need to expect them and look for them.
Thankfully I have a little box of miracles to help me do this.
:)
I am not in a place of expectation.
I am in a place of
doubt
uncertainly
cynicism
and fear.
I am feeling overwhelmed with national and world events that have
brought tragedy to so many.
I am feeling overwhelmed in a thankless job.
I am feeling overwhelmed by questions of Faith.
I am feeling overwhelmed with a general feeling of being "stuck".
It feels hopeless.
I know that I shouldn't get bogged down by everything...
and I know this sounds like I am in a really awful place but I write about it because I also know that this is part of my process right now.
This is part of my journey.
And it's okay to be in this place for a little bit.
But.
I must also remember that I need to utilize resources around me that will help me move on from this space and help me recognize reasons or patterns that bring me to these places.
I know that I have an amazing husband that is my everything.
He is life-giving to me and I am clinging to this.
I know that I have a family that supports me--every aspect of me.
I know that I have amazing friends who call me because they are thinking about me.
I have friends who let me cry.
A lot.
I have friends who write blogs like this or this to remind me that I am not alone and that
I need to keep believing.
I know that I need to position myself to a place of "expectation" and not write off goodness and kindness that comes my way.
I need to anticipate miracles in the mundane because that's all I can really count on.
And, they are there.
They are.
I just need to expect them and look for them.
Thankfully I have a little box of miracles to help me do this.
:)
