The end is near....

He's coming home in 48 hours. 

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

While to some it's "Wow! That was fast!"
 to me, it's "Holy crap. I don't know if I can do this another day..."

{For reals. Even 48 hours seems like eternity!}

#stupidindia

Cereal for dinner, reruns of The Big Bang Theory, and 

LOTS of time at work is wearing on me. 

Thankfully we have been able to talk every day. We usually FaceTime after school 
and my co-worker next door to me has heard us talking. She said to me one day,

 "Does distance really make the heart grow fonder or are you guys just like that?"

 I asked her what she meant and she said, "You know, all "lovey dovey..."

 I answered her right away,

 "Oh. We're just like that. See, we go great together." 

I went on to explain that we found each other later in life and that our relationship feels real and strong and right all the time. I couldn't put it into words, but I felt deep gratitude and sureness that this is the real deal.

I want to say that I learned a lot about my self and my capabilities and blah, blah, blah...but what it has really come down to--especially now--is that this has been really difficult and reuniting with the love of my life will make everything right in the world again. 

This has been 'our song'... :)

Stupid India.

Brian is going to be in India for a *little* shy of 6 weeks.

SIX WEEKS.

Ugh. 

He is going for work and while I support him in ALL that he does and I know that his work in India is really important and he is perfect for the job, 
 I think India is a pretty stupid place. 

For one thing Mumbai is 8,387 miles away. 

I mean, come on. That's a little ridiculous.

For another thing it's happening during my least favorite month of the year. 

August will be extra, extra long now. 

Awesome.

I am also starting a brand new job and it stresses me out that I will be by
 myself through this transition. 

I know that's a bit dramatic and I know that I won't be alone, alone.

I have amazing friends and family who are surrounding me during this time 
and I am so, so grateful. 

I guess it's just that we aren't used to distance in our relationship. Brian's job does not usually require travel, so we are rarely apart. 
{HUGE shout out to those families that deal with traveling spouses on a regular basis. 
You are true Saints!!!}
I am mostly dreading the lack of natural daily interaction.

He is my best friend and we do everything together.
We have a damn good routine down and I love it. 
I thrive because of it. 
*sigh*

At the end of the day, I know we'll be fine.

It might even open up a new level of confidence in me and a

 growth spurt for us that will make our relationship even stronger. 

{Great optimistic spin, eh??}

But, in the meantime, I think India is stupid and I am counting down the days
 until we can look like this again:

So, this happened today....

This is true.

 I did cry.

But this is more accurate:

Yup.

{I mean, "nervous breakdown" might be a little harsh for what happened... but not really...}

Basically I took the actions of said "asswipe" 

{he's really not, but it's kind of an amazing term ...}

 really personally and all the gumption I thought I had to withstand 8th graders' 

crazy antics went out the window.

{So what happened was the kid messed with a planter filled with soil and seeds I was using in my demonstration for the book we are reading called Seedfolks. I put so much heart and soul into the lesson and it felt really awful when I came into the room from supervising the halls and I saw that the soil was everywhere. I pretty much immediately started crying and I had to leave the room. The teacher across the hall had the kids fill out anonymous forms explaining what they knew.}

 I did recover, taught the lesson and finished my day by breaking up a fight and writing a "last straw" referral for a kid who might get expelled.

 {And I really liked the kid! I have gone to bat for him over and over and over...it makes me sad that he chose to get a referral.} 

What a freaking day. 

No wonder teachers drink.

Cheers.